I'm a Doctor Now!

After 4 long and hard years my degree has been conferred. That means you can now call me Doctor.

First, where has time gone? 

Second, I'm so emotional I can hardly stand it. 

Today has been chaotic, you know with it being Mother's Day, Graduation Day, AND Evander's birthday! I am really struggling to write this post, but I want to be sure to write it because I want to capture this very moment. I can't pick a starting point, my mind has been racing all week. I've been having trouble sleeping for the last 2 weeks. Only today during graduation did my mind stop racing for one single question: Now What? What's next for Charity? For that moment my mind was blank. I have been longing for a blank mind for over 2 weeks.Then finally I have a blank mind and I felt stunned. Shocked. As if in that moment I was in a dream- Surreal. I dreaded going to graduation, I didn't want to sit for hours, in the hot sun, dressed in all black, practically on top of the person beside me. But none of that happened. However, it was a bit hot. But today, if never before in my life, today- I took pride in myself. 

In my regalia.

In my school.

 My profession.

 My culture.

 I took pride in every:

 heartache,

heartbreak, 

set back, 

no, 

rejection, 

detour, 

and failure.

Every mistake, 

each uncertainty.

All of the hurt I've ever experienced in my life allowed me to earn this doctorate. Those things molded me into the person I have become.Sometimes, we gravely underestimate God's destiny for our lives. We become scared and uncertain, doubtful, and even unenthusiastic. But, there is no error in God. In short, to sum up graduation- it was perfect.

Evander's Birthday

As I mentioned earlier, Evander had to share his Birthday glory with my graduation. He completely catered to my every need, as he does most days. I wanted to do something very special for him. But being that we are going on vacation, money is limited. We went back and forth about what our post graduation plans would be. Both of us really wanted to go out to eat, but the massive crowds are not our style. And as if you haven't figured out already, I am a big foodie and love trying out new places. So, we set out to find a restaurant that was accepting reservations and to our luck we found Freemason Abbey and it was absolutely delish. In short, to sum up Evander's birthday-it was perfect.

Mother's Day

4 years ago, I became a mother my greatest accomplishment to date. Yes, even above my doctorate. But today I was able to show my daughter what hard work and faith will allow you to accomplish. I hear that she brags to her classmates that "My mommy is a doctor" "My mommy is in the newspaper" So, I know that she is proud of me. I want to raise a woman, who is first proud of who she is and second proud of being a woman. To follow every single one of her dreams and never settle for a "No." So, mother's day for me today was extra special. I was with my Mother, her mother, my aunts, and my Nana. All strong, beautiful, bold- women. When I get discouraged about life, I look around and I know that, I can feel that I'm meant to be great. Don't EVER let someone tell you, that you can't be great. And don't not be great because someone is intimidated by your greatness. Just throw glitter, twirl, and smile. I said all this to really just say: In short, to sum up Mother's Day-it was perfect.

Perfect

Maybe we don't have too many perfect days or maybe everyday is perfect and we just don't acknowledge it. We focus so much on the rain, that we forget to appreciate the sunshine.I'm not sure. Really, who am I? Well, I'm glad you inquired. I'm the perfect person, for the perfect occasion, for which I have been perfectly assigned to be perfect for.- this all is now. So, again I ask, who am I? I'm a doctor now.

With love,

Doctor Mommy 

XOXO

Oh Sweet Sixteen!

It is 2016, please lets take a moment of celebration [insert celebration] OMG I can not believe that I have made it through 4 years of pharmacy school. I am so thankful and filled with so much emotion. Can I bask for a moment in time? Life has been really crazy. I always stop in with a short nothing to say and promise to come back and really talk about what's been going on with me. But life has just kept me really busy. Since I won't have too much going on I've thought about deleting this blog after school and starting a new one. But, I just can't bring myself to do it.

Emsley is almost FOUR and  almost as tall as ME! Which doesn't say a lot because I'm super short. She is so beautiful and smart. Four entire years and I still haven't gotten my life together. Oh, and I'm still fat! I'm eating as good as ever. Somebody gotta do it.

Graduation is less than an ENTIRE month a way. It's so surreal, I will be a Pharm D. (ehh hmm) a whole doctor. Life has not been easy, ever! But it's been a really good time.

Hopefully graduating will free up some of my time. Probably not, I just swap old goals for new goals. I had a spare moment yesterday and noticed I hadn't posted in nearly 2 years. Unacceptable on my part. This blog means so much to me and no one probably even reads it. If I was on my iphone I would insert one of those little crying side mouth emojis. Humble beginnings, I think this blog was initially started to pass time and make money. Just to confirm I've made no money. I also, think it served to help improve my writing. I've written so many articles. I recently had to write a four page paper for school and was completley full of myself. Like is this a paying job or NAH?

There is always a little something about home. You can never go too far or do too much, that you can't come back home. No matter how long I've been away or how much I've accomplished (or not accomplished) it feels good to come back home and write about life.

Until...