OMG... Can you tell that pharmacy school has gotten real? This semester has been lighter than last in terms of credits but not course load. I mean I am dying over here. Although, I did receive word via mail today that Jovial Mommy is a Honor Student, I made the dean's list for last semester. They have a little ceremony where you are recognized and all but there is a seminar on that date so I'm unable to attend. But I hope all of my fellow honor students turn-up (party hard)!
I miss you ALL so much, it absolutely kills me not to be able to blog as much as I would like. I miss expressing my feelings, the drama all the pain. No but really, I do miss you. My Internet family.
Emsley has gotten so big and she is crawling and standing and trying to walk and screaming and trying to talk and eating and being a little busy body. She will be nine months in a few days and all I can say is "Oh the journey." Thinking about it kind of makes me sad. I remember when she loved to lay on my chest and now she doesn't.She kind of does her own thing at night. Her room has finally ALMOST started to come together, thanks be to the mailman.
My weight, I was doing really well with my weight and then like 2 weeks ago I started to not do so well, "BUMMMER" I know but monday is a new day and I will make it right. I think though that I've gotten my sexy back, just a little! Oh, I should go on with my bad self, and I will. I feel like that old girl from way back when is returning, and I like it.
I have yet to record a video, or make a twitter, or make a facebook page...And I don't know, I just am always so BUSY. I need a new profile picture as I am no longer pregnant. I wanted to get a logo made. I can tell you time has not been on my side.
For a while I was struggling with the roles that I was having to take on in my life, I mean we just have so many dynamics to life. You know being mom, fiancee, student, professional, and big baby. Those are some big shoes to fill and simultaneously, WHOA!
I have just accepted that me being a mother doesn't mean I have to act 65 and my life is now about having children and being a big family. It just means that the Girl I was before had to step aside and become a WOMAN. Every decision I make now is an executive decision, it might make some people mad and they may not like it, but I make logical decisions for Emsley. I can still have fun, just not reckless fun and nothing can take being twenty something away from me. You define your age, your age doesn't define you. And as much as I want purple hair and to be super thin so that I can wear God knows what, I dress more put together and professional because you never know who you might meet. I stopped thinking like a student and I started acting like a future pharmacist. It was hard, more of a struggle than anything but it feels GREAT!
I think I am finally learning to LOVE me ROLLS and ALL...HAHA